The Chickenhawk and I actually feel like celebrating right now. You might think we are insane and perhaps we are but it feels like weeks of waiting and wondering and WORRYING are over. As I have said in these posts, I am sitting in, conserving my energy and waiting for an opportunity to attack. Well my opponent has shown himself and my team and I are marking him. Our job now is to wear him down and then rip his legs off. Big ring all the way!!
The details: Doctor KT just called. She gave us the cliff notes version of what I've got. KT is my dear friend and first mate who works as a GP at Kaiser. She works two doors down from my oncologist and has been my champion through all of this. She has assisted in coordination of my diagnosis and moreover has been a steadfast friend and interpretor of all the medical jargon. I am really really lucky to have her!
So I have cancer. The doc says maybe some sort of plasmocytoma. All through this the doctors have been talking about something called multiple myeloma; however, many of my test results have pointed away from that, while others have pointed at it. Please note: we are stilll not sure what exactly is up but we do know I have cancer in my blood and that it may be a bone marrow tumor in just one spot rather than all over my body. There are other possibilities as well and we will need to do more testing to find out.
As I type we are waiting for the oncologist to call and give us the scoop. KT's call was just a primer. Sounds like I'll be doing some chemo, radiation, maybe a bone marrow/stem cell transplant. Too soon to tell. My sense of releif is immense right now, now that we know generally what it is.
Last night I had a nighmare that they never could diagnose it and I just slowly got more painful and crappy until I faded away. All the doctors could do was study me and try to learn. That has been my worst fear for sometime. At this point I feel very relieved that I have something to fight!
The calls of support and good deeds pointed at us have been overwhelming.
Curtis Hincapie (a nickname) David and Eric M, came over yesterday and installed the hot tub. No one asked them to do it. They just came and did it. Chickenhawk tried to pay them but they were not taking any money. I'm going to build up Curtis's cross bike for him in return. I need to come up with a 10 speed rear deraileur for it. I think all the other stuff is lying around in the spare parts bucket. Eric, if you are reading, drop your bike off and I'll tune it for you.
Aunt Judy and Uncle Peter
Adam and his counsel
Chuck and Nancy
Cassidy for stepping up and helping out
Everyone at the office
Cris and Mike
I can keep going but this is starting to sound like an acceptance speech.
Dont worry about me I can do this.