Yesterday (saturday) was all about experimenting with vicodin. I didn't want to use it going in but thought it best to give it a try. So I gave it 24 hours. I quit (for now) last night at about 3:30 in the AM. I am sticking with tylenol and some groovy herbal stuff that a friend gave me for now. It feels good to be present in my body again. Vicodin took me out of my body and reality for the day.
Today (sunday) I sat in the sun in our gravel driveway. It was one of those classic sunny winter days where if you are in the shade you need a sweater and in the sun you need to have your shirt off. I lsitened to Songs from an Old Blue Chair and read Share the Care . This is book is like someone invented the wheel and all we have to do is roll it. Tonight we are going to work on pur plan for forming my care group.
I am feeling really good right now mostly because Heather F came over and gave me a massage. She has volunteered to give me massages as I need them. This is a huge gift, I dont think I'll really have the opportunity to fully repay her. I honestly cant imagine what I might be able to do to repay her so I am accepting the gift. With Emmense Gratitude.
I've got two major projects going that are going to take a bit of energy for the next few days. I'll write about them when I am ready. I truly appreciate all of the well wishing and offers of help from everyone. We are working on a plan that will hopefully include the community as much as possible in my healing.